In the Dusty Cobwebs of My Mind
I believed it was the one thing I could rely on, the one thing I could run to, the one thing I could escape to after I had been soaked in the hardships of the storm and burnt by the fierceness of the sun.
And yet it failed me. Or perhaps I failed the one thing I thought I could rely on. My writing, my passion, my essence. It has evaporated like steamed water on a blazing hot day. It has escaped from me, when it was my only escape.
It has been months since I have picked at my pen with my thoughts. It has been months since I bugged my keyboard with my hopes and dreams, my wit and charm. It’s all gone.
Or perhaps this little moment in time is a way for it to return, to feature in a sequel, to complete the journey I set out on many years ago. Perhaps allowing myself five minutes to reflect, to dig up my thoughts, will allow a clearing in the dusty cobwebs of my mind.
But one step at a time, I will not get carried away. Today I write, I yearn for my love, my essence, my writing to return. Perhaps that will be enough, for today.
Subhan’Allah, I’ve been feeling exactly this way with regards to Fiction! Thank God for photography . . .
Shawna
May 12, 2009 at 2:00 pm
I know Shawna…at least photography is one creative outlet…but it doesn’t replace writing
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 2:09 pm
No, nothing replaces writing, but even the best of writers experience dry spells. It’s nothing to worry about. You haven’t failed, and neither has your writing. You are still writing, deep down inside, below the level of ordinary consciousness. Sooner or later, it will all come out.
In the meantime, you may find inspiration in outside sources such as writer’s groups, on-line critique groups (of which there are hundreds), or reading the work of a writer you admire.
If none of that sparks you, never mind. Sooner or later…
Marahm
May 12, 2009 at 2:52 pm
Marahm thank you for your wise words…sooner or later, I hope it is sooner….
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 11:51 pm
Writing has been always my passion too. But i got the idea that when i am so happy or so sad or so busy, i can not just write or type any word even if i have alot to say.
Btw, i always miss your sincere writing and the lovely person behind these all words, that spread light and hope in hearts..
Thanks for being close, even for today…
Shahrzad
May 12, 2009 at 3:37 pm
This is what has happened to me Shahrzad, because of life events I have not been able to get myself to reflect or write. I wish it can return again – writing to me is like meditation, I get to reflect, to purge, to do so much…. thank you for missing my writing!
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 11:50 pm
P.S: I love this template. It’s very nice and pro. Especially in comments..
Shahrzad
May 12, 2009 at 3:39 pm
I love this new template!
Putting that aside, I’m sure every writer has had their break from writing. I know I had several.
I couldn’t help sending a comment on your Guestbook because of two things that I noticed here.
The first was that you would make at least one post in a month, but you haven’t at all on April. The second was after reading your previous posts, and some were related to death.
Anyways, alhamdulillah you’re doing well.
Keep writing and snapping those pictures. I usually always stop by to check for new things.
Adib
May 12, 2009 at 6:14 pm
Thank you Adib, again, you are very kind. Perhaps because of all the turmoil in the past few months that I have been through, it is only natural to have a block, when emotions cannot be put into words. Nevertheless, I hope I can write some more soon… thank you again for your care towards your muslim sister.
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 11:48 pm
Glad to see this brief break in writers block! I used to have this problem all the time. I feel like I need to write everyday to stay sane. It was actually only taking up roleplaying that got me to write daily and escape writers block. I hope you can get past it too! <3
Sakiina
May 12, 2009 at 9:06 pm
Thank you Sakiina, I hope it passes too
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 11:47 pm
Asalaamu alikum UM…
Aww a very enjoyable read… I came across your blog just recenly and loved…
I hope you get your writing flow back Sis – id loev to read more..
Theres no better way for me to get my thoughts and feeling out then to get hold of a keyboard and begin tapping away!
Look forward to reading soon
Stay blessed
x
Jannah
May 12, 2009 at 9:10 pm
Thank you jannah!
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 11:46 pm
You are not alone, Unique.
sheepoo feels the same way these days, and in fact has been feeling this for over a month now. Nary a thought to ponder, not a line to write.But then we all go through our own peculiar phases of life, so hang in tight there; it will come back to you, Insha Allah!
sheepoo
May 12, 2009 at 9:19 pm
I’m sorry to hear about this Sheepo, I hope it comes back soon for you…perhaps in this busy world it is hard to hear one’s thoughts and reflect – perhaps we need a time out just to get back to listening to our souls…
Unique Muslimah
May 12, 2009 at 11:46 pm