A Crater on the Moon
I am the largest crater on the moon. Like a wound, it craves to be healed. But its depth and sheer size is unimaginable to the human mind; reflecting years of torture and pain inflicted on its soul.
It is lonely here. But life exists on the surface. Bacteria and moles which greedily live off the pus that still seeps from the gigantic hole. It is in its depths where no soul lives, where no soul dares enter- because I will not let them.
And when it is thought that my size cannot increase any further, that the pain and hurt cannot simply attack in a different form- asteroids, attracted by my vulnerability, plunge into my atmosphere and strike unmercifully with all their might.
Something I thought was a beautiful shooting star, something I admired and permitted to shine in my skies, only ripped me apart even more and broke my trust yet again. Exhausted from the endless pain, the endless let-downs, I build a wall around my wound, to prevent any soul from realising where my weakness lies. But sometimes determined, cruel souls find a way; sometimes the wall is not enough to protect.
Sometimes I watch other moons nearby who have sent their asteroids over to harm me. They line up against each other, competing, trying to outshine one another with the fake white light that is only a reflection from the sun. But most viewers of the moon forget this and are deceived with their bright illumination.
From afar these eerie moons glow so brightly, covering up the fact that they too have wounds. But I know everyone has wounds, even those who create them and inflict them upon others. No one is free from the oppressions of pain. Even the creators of pain must taste the sourness of hurt once in a while.
It would take a miracle to heal this crater, the largest crater on the moon. Scientists on earth have named me. Astronauts have walked among my rubble in amazement. I wish they could send a miracle with them to heal me, a Knight in shining armor, someone who can prove to the skies that not all souls are out there to destroy. Some, rare souls are made to heal. To love. To cherish. To protect.
Until that day this savior is sent to my skies, I remain the largest crater on the moon, plundering into the darkest skies, holding my breath for my healer, my savior. I just pray my breath can take being held for another batch of eternities, another batch of cruelty from other moons and asteroids, another batch of being in total darkness with this pain; this deep, dark, bleeding black hole.
MashaAllah, that was beautiful, this is something i can really relate to right now.
outcastrebelchic
September 7, 2008 at 1:11 pm
very nice article, thanks
Yasir Imran
September 7, 2008 at 1:37 pm
SubhanAllah, Unique, that was beautiful.
srtuba
September 7, 2008 at 2:29 pm
You are an artist. Your artistic temperment has enlarged the crater, but will also heal it, and produce much beauty, of all sorts, in the process.
Marahm
September 7, 2008 at 3:55 pm
SubanAllah,! Yup, definitely some souls are there for healing, we all have that capacity I believe, just some are more aware and selfless than others; a pity you meet the wrong type of people constantly. Sometimes when this happens to me, I think this to be a sign that I need to return my full heart to Allah (swt)…even when we give of ourselves to our ‘close and dear ones’ it would be done for Allah, so that even when they do disappoint us, we turn back to Allah again and again….knowing that He is there for us and we are reminded of His Infinite Mercy + Love… nothing happens except by His will!
May Allah grant you the meeting of His true servant and lovers, Ameen.
M.
Mariam
September 8, 2008 at 1:23 am
Beautiful article that has a lot of meaning.
kellycupcake
September 8, 2008 at 5:40 am
Deep.. Thru out the weekend i tried to find peace in my heart dealing with hurtful surroundings and then make me think as I just also read a blog of my friend who kinda have the same issue and trying to find peace. Wow.. everybody is trying to be better in handling things that hurts..
Only Allah Knows Best!
Bravo!!!
ai2ai
September 8, 2008 at 3:35 pm
allhamdulillah i now will studying with serious
ubaidz
September 8, 2008 at 4:06 pm
Amazing! Masha’Allah You are really talented!
silver
September 10, 2008 at 3:18 pm
I came across your blog whilst googling for my thesis and i’ve stopped doing research for that and have been reading this for over an hour :-S
SubhanAllah another enjoyable distraction for when I can’t be bothered with studying!
Fatema
September 10, 2008 at 5:44 pm
Assalamualikum,
Masha Allah a very nice article ……. wow you are a really nice writer ……. it’s the same here with me ……
uneekmuslimah
September 13, 2008 at 12:17 am
Beautifully expressed, I am another crater on the moon.
- Sue
as i am
September 15, 2008 at 4:51 am
WoW, your writing is beautiful
One Word Awesome!
Princess
September 17, 2008 at 2:50 pm
Thank you everyone
Unique Muslimah
September 18, 2008 at 10:52 pm